Hello everyone! It’s been a long time since I updated my blog. Hope every single one of you are doing well.
Our topic for today is about, “Who do you admire the most and why?”
The person I admire the most other than my parents.. Her name is Adna Nasrallah. She is a true friend, my colleague, my best friend and also my best enemy.
I will tell you why I admire her the most…
So many people say that you won’t amount to anything, you won’t make it, you won’t succeed unless you’re on your own. For Adna’s situation, she is a single mom. Her husband died early after she gave birth to her second child. Unlike other people who complains about the “simple little things” and those people forget the heroes standing behind them- the unsung warriors, the brave fighters and peacemakers who make life what it is. These people are families, friends, compadres, amigos and even the chums; add the vibrancy and color to this world that is otherwise a monotone black and white. These people- no matter what is wrong and what they are doing, support you every step of the way and hold you up when you’re falling.
Adna is like a superwoman. A single mom who can multi-task as a nurse, a teachers, a cook, a provider, a defender and a protector. A single mom tries when things are hard. She never gives up. She believes in her family, even when things are tough. She knows that above all things… a mother’s love is more than enough.
Ladies and gentlemen, never forget these people watching you, guarding you through life’s hardships. They will be your light, your happiness to guide you through this never- ending darkness. If soon forgotten, the marks- and sometimes even the scars, these people cast on your heart will still exist, though their reasoning may be lost. Everyone you meet, every single person impacts you in some way, no matter how small or insignificant it may seem at the time. Then there are those people- “the special people” to touch your heart who leave marks so big or so deep on your soul, that you could never forget their mark no matter how much you try. These people will hold the greatest impact on your life and whose presence will stick with through all times. These marks aid to characterize who you are and how your life will go.
3 years ago, I suffered in severe depression and anxiety. I was devastating on many levels especially to my ego! I was willing to end everything. I do not know where to start. I lost interest of my health, I partied all the time. I didn’t care what anybody thinks. I started drinking a lot and eating unhealthy. I cry a lot. I’d always cry about the smallest things. I feel a lot. I wonder a lot. I get nightmares a lot. The feeling.. someone just died! My life story is like a beautiful disaster. Adna stood by me from my worst and through at my best. She always reminded me that my life is very important! In every darkness there is light. She is the light of my life.
Sometimes you have to give up on people not because you don’t care but.. because they don’t care.
Before you can live a part of you has to die. You have to LET GO…
There’s an important difference between giving up and letting go.
You have to let go of what could have been, how you should have acted and what you wish you would have said differently. You have to accept that you can’t change the past experiences, opinions of others at the moment in time or outcomes from their choices or yours. When you finally recognize that the truth then you will understand the true meaning of forgiveness of yourself and others. From this point you will finally be free.
You MUST accept all the hurt. You must learn how to endure and embrace the pain. We all been through worse. No one is alone. Life is full of disappointments, without it… we will never learn from our mistakes or failures. Never let anyone change you. Everyone is growing at their own pace. Being alone doesn’t mean you fail but it’s a good start to obtain inner peace and refocus on your own health- physically and mentally.
According to Elisabeth Kubler- Ross- “The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of those depths”.
More than anything else, having family and true friends around helps look out for my best interest. I think that is one of the main reasons I made the transition from the breakup and residing from USA to Philippines. Surround yourself with people you can grow with. Family around helps keep you reminded of your goals. It also reminds you of where you came from because some people forget and can get lost. It’s a great balance and they always look out for what’s best.
To survive, you’ve got to stop chasing people. Focus on yourself first and rebuild your life! Too many people are trying to find the right person instead of being the right person (Yourself)!!! Never be afraid to be the first to awaken in your social circle, to elevate, and to exit, if it’s no longer serving.
Healing takes time. Starting over is the key. If you feel alone, love yourself even more. Fill those cold spaces, with warmth and softness. Alone doesn’t have to feel lonely.
I can’t believe that I made it through. I was fragile. Love taught me many things about myself and others. I didn’t enjoy some of those lessons, but they definitely made me a better person.
Thank you for reading my blog and I wish everyone have a blessed week!
April Mae 🙂